What a beautiful gift this cancer

What a beautiful gift this cancer!

Yet, that’s not what I thought in January 29 2010 when the doctor, after a mammogram, announced me a double breast cancer, the mean one, the one that is spread by hormones very fast to the liver, brain and bones…

20 minutes after I found myself on the street with a list of appointments in my hand, MRA to check if an ablation was needed for both breasts or only for one. Surgery the next week. Wow, I had the feeling that I had passed through a blender and someone had pressed the button…without asking me…and yet it was about MY life!

Back home thinking about the surgery I had a very clear vision of butchery in all its violence. I called the clinic and cancelled everything. Of course the doctors kept calling me letting me know that my chances to survive were inexistent without medical help. I understand them. I had to sign a medical release to assure them that my family would not sue them for non-assistance.

I was extremely well surrounded and yet I felt lonely. Lonely, because this kind of decision is so against what the society and medicine offer us. My decision was very clear even if I knew that the path I had chosen would be difficult and lonely.

All my being, my body, my brain, my soul, every single cell of my body was constantly aware about this new information: I have a cancer.

The only thing I could think about was to start to grow sprouts. In a couple of days wheatgrass, sunflower sprouts, radish sprouts were filling up our home. I think that this kind of new life was turning my attention away from the possibility of dying, now very present in my daily life.

In fact I remembered that when I participated to a training of living food 20 years ago I already understood by that time that living raw food is THE right way to honor our body. It is stimulating our immunity system so that cancer and other sicknesses have a hard time to resist to the abundance of oxygen brought by the greens. By that time I even wanted to “try” on someone who has a cancer if it works. I didn’t find one. But I did find one now: me!! Of course I was half dead of fear, anger, sadness and shame.

I always thought that my life was beautiful, I have a wonderful family, I love my job teaching Kundalini Yoga, I am vegetarian. And yet, I know that it is me and only me who had caused the cancer cells. Not maybe so much by my way of living – already quite healthy – but by my way of thinking. But how can one change his way of thinking? I did not know what to do.

The stress of the diagnosis had doubled the size of the tumors. This made me understand that the way of announcing the cancer could be different. Not once I was asked if I wanted to have surgery, not once I was proposed to take my time to THINK. There was clearly an emergency. And its this emergency that creates stress. Knowing that it takes years for a cancer to develop, 5 maybe 20 years, this emergency is very difficult to understand.

After a month of raw food I had an inflammation in my breasts. Where did this inflammation come from? Our wonderful family doctor who supported me said that the inflammation shows that my body is reacting, it’s a gift! Actually the cancer cells hate oxygen by which the green raw food is filled with.

I also came to know about visualization technic of Dr Carl Simonton. According to him two out of three cancer patients die after the medical treatments within the five following years after the surgery if the patient didn’t change his way of living or/and thinking. My other wonderful doctor was healing me with sounds of Tibetan bowls. At those sessions I could feel my heart opening helping me to see love even there where I did not see it before.

I was surrounded by my family who kept believing in me, my friends, pupils, therapists. I was bathing in love and confidence. It is thanks to this amazing support that I could get healed.

Raw vegan food makes our mind clear. Thanks to this state I could find a new dimension in meditation. Actually it is scientifically proved that meditation cleans our brain so that we become aware about the mechanism of self-healing that we all have at our birth. And which we lose little by little by polluting our brain by structured thoughts imposed by our education and society.

I constantly heard of people dying from cancer! How was it possible? The tumor was eliminated, chemotherapy was given, medication for years….and people just die….I understood that one has to be very strong mentally and physically to support all those heavy treatments. Yet they make us very sick and week which makes it difficult to want to continue living. And this is the thing: we need to believe in life to be able to continue living, recognize our mission, to have a passion.

In the very beginning I was in a hurry to get healed. But when I finally understood that it was NOT important to get cured but to FEEL GOOD, be in good health and be happy, an incredible peace installed in my heart and I knew that I was or would be cured. Actually I realized that I felt better, at all levels, than since I was born! The main reason for this was that I had started to see love there where I did not see it before, actually I started to see love in everyone and everything. In this case you can’t judge or criticize and a peace installs in your heart. And when peace lives in your heart there is no room for fear.

During this time I could realize one of my dreams: I went to Florida, the center of living food, Hippocrates Health Institute. This is a paradise where people have chosen to cure from a cancer or other sicknesses or just to be cleaned to feel good. Already the energy of this amazing place is curing you with the wonderful couple Drs Brian and Anna-Maria Clement who direct his center with love and passion. The most important thing that I learned there is that cancer is nothing, it comes and goes! This lightness has been essential in my healing process.

It seems to me that my life has found it’s initial colors. The day whne I'll die, tomorrow or in 50 years, I'll die healed. This is a priceless gift to me. The past has lost it’s importance as well as the future. I am happy.

Aija, Lausanne, Switzerland, 12.10.2012

www.hippocratesinstitute.org

To read: All the books of Dr Brian Clement, Dr Christian Tal Schaller, Dr David Servan-Schreiber, Dr Carl Simonton. Books about fasting.